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Thursday, October 8th, 2015

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It’s hard to be mad at rappers sometimes even tho the shit they be saying can be really problematic (or nah), but I feel their pain. It’s very immature, and they’ve got to be so ego about everything= success. So they say things just to (try to) hurt the ones who hurt them. But if you think about it, they’re putting themselves on blast, and if you’re evolved enough (something you gotta forever work on), the shit they be saying (if it’s about you), wont hurt so much.

I am fresh outta a relationship, and I realized I’m a grown ass woman. I’ve matured in love/life. For the first time ever I’m not hurt or broken by a break up. I feel like I was so lucky to have experienced that much joy and pleasure, and the pain (of break up- not my choice, which also happened two days after my grandma died) was worth it. I’m really more full of love now, than ever before. I used to be like a broken rapper, I’m cold, baby, ice cold. But now, not really, not so much, not at all. I wanna love, and laugh and play, and just, BE. LOVE. Like all the gob damn time. Gimme love, I want it, I want to give it to you, to the world. I ain’t talking about sex, although I love that shit too, I’m talking about the simple act of kindness, and answering bids, and non-attachment, but also, non-abandonment. #hippieshit #LoveSexDreams

gaspar noé compares love to hard drugs

“”Ultimately though, “the best moments of my life have been moments of love,” a rather romantic Noé conceded. “These carnal moments of hugging, kissing, fucking with someone you’re obsessed with.””




“Can compassion be learned? The answer is yes! Sometimes, all it takes is truly paying attention to the people around us.”

Thursday, October 1st, 2015

“Sharon Salzberg’s ‪#‎StreetLovingKindness‬ movement goes animated with this new video from Happify!”

This is my shish right here. Mettā :.

Monday, September 14th, 2015


“Mettā (Pali) or maitrī (Sanskrit) is benevolence, friendliness, amity, friendship, good will, kindness, close mental union (on same mental wavelength), and active interest in others. It is one of the ten pāramīs of the Theravāda school of Buddhism, and the first of the four sublime states (Brahmavihāras). This is love without clinging (upādāna).”

My main teacher that introduced me to this method of meditation is Sharon Salzberg whom I met at the Maui, HI Ram Dass retreat last year.


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Check out her free podcast <3 Metta Hour with Sharon Salzberg
By MindPod Network

Acid, Ecstasy, First kisses and Last(ing) Fucks

Sunday, August 30th, 2015

My Saturn Return- Age 29

Sunday, August 30th, 2015

My summer be like:

Saturn will occupy the sign of Scorpio from October 5, 2012 to December 23, 2014; and then finishes up from June 14, 2015 to September 17, 2015.

“Depression can be a byproduct of heavy Saturn transits.”

What is a Saturn return?

Oh, and this shit, fuck.
Venus Retrograde: July 25 to September 6, 2015
“Taking final action in the areas of finance and love, however, is not advised until Venus turns direct again.”

Getting Personal

Sunday, August 30th, 2015

I’m about to put all my shit on blast. Gonna be updating this bitch and I’m not sure where exactly I’m going with it. I do know that I’m working on different ways to heal myself and this blog will be one of my therapies.

Feel free to check my ass.
Tell me I’m fucking up with my grammar and writing, so I can fix it.
Let me know when I swerve outta my lane.
I want to hear when I’m making mistakes so I can live and learn.
Teach meee. Especially when I’m being a problem.

Lez do dis shittt.

<3 Love me because I love you. ZeBek:. P.S. If you read an old post that super sux, which I'm sure there are many, let me know, I'll update it or take it down! I wanna clean up old shit, but I'm going to move forward for now with new posts.


Sunday, August 30th, 2015

My feels


I enjoyed this movie

Hector and the Search for Happiness 2014
Find it on netflix.